Well is this is a turn up for the books, I'm online and i hope you all have had a good life since i was on here last.

and today is one day i'd rather forget... I'm 29 today.

KILL ME!!

Current Mood: annoyed

Just too fill you in… I have been snowed under by all of the work I have to do for collage.

I got a girlfriend… split up because she cheated on me… I forgave her and we got back together… But I only got to see her for about three hours in two weeks… split up on Saturday at 12 o‘clock, because (this is a humdinger) “I don’t feel the same way about you… since I cheated on you” found out it was because she had been with another guy on Friday… and agreed to be his girlfriend, at 11 O’clock on Saturday. But was a coward about telling me. I only found out this because of a friend.

I asked out a girl I like yesterday… she is thinking about it, and going to a Him gig this weekend. So I will get an answer next week. Or when I go to the shop she works at. :P

I got in a fight with my brother Cellan last night. I will not go into it but he is a wanker when he is pissed.

I think I have damaged my little finger on my right hand… he didn’t get a shot in.

I’ve got an assessment on my photographic skills today, from what I’ve be told buy one of my tutors, I seem to know what I’m doing… I just wish it was the other tutor that said that to me, John likes most of my work.

I'll be back on monday with more news on my f__ked up life.

Current Location: collage
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: My tormented mind

Well as you may have heard last time, my mother had a “mild” hart attack and was sent home after 8 days. And so not to be left out, the day my mum got out my granddad (82 or is it 85?) had a full on hart attack, but for some strange reason they let him home only after 2 day, and recommended for the next few weeks to spend as much time resting.

WTF is going on in the NHS I don’t know. I do know its shit and going down within the next year, so if you’re going to get sick do it now. :P

Am I missing something? Yes… I had a chest infection and the crap that was coming out was ugly. I almost vomited a few times, and it got so bad one day I had some trouble breathing.

Other than that… I got a bar jabbed through my nose (as in bullring) and it looks good, if not painful if I catch it on anything. Yes it did make my eyes water when I got it done, but the bastards gave me a ring in the wrong size, so a few days after I had to change it myself, it was that or look like a fucking tit for 8 weeks.

The threads on the new bar hurt on the way in. >.

Current Location: collage
Current Mood: distressed

So what has happened since I was last on here???

Missed collage on Wednesday because I had an interview.

Got a phone call on Thursday telling me my mum was in hospital.

Found out on Friday she had a “mild” hart attack… so in all over the last few days my life is up shit creek.

Current Location: collage
Current Mood: cranky

I’m not the best at the moment, and I may need to go back to bed.
flu/headache/cold, all combining in the hell that I now call my life... until I get over it.

um... ... dose that mean I’ll be dead?

and yes. my depression is getting out of control, so not all that much has changed in the last week, I’m behind on my assignment (earth air fire water) and I only have two weeks to come up with something... I just may be screwing myself on this one.

As for everything else, I’m still masturbating because I can’t find a “good” or the “right” women for me. I know where one is but I’m just not up for it.

I am now going to my room to think of grave_13 and plumpandsassy getting it on with one another. :D

Current Location: collage
Current Mood: sore

Current Mood: amused

So I’m spending the day poking my fingers in his ears and going *La la lala la lala la la*

And also getting funny looks from people, that Suggest I may be going over the top. :D

Current Location: collage
Current Mood: nauseated

Well happy New Year for all, sorry I couldn’t say it sooner. :P

I will have to beg for forgiveness because I don’t really like what is happening tomorrow…

It’s my birthday… I’ll be 28.

I’m to young to get old, so why now?

WHY?????

Current Mood: disappointed

Current Mood: amused

I just had my first assignment score given to me… but I forgot to hand in my scrapbook. : P

And with the words “without your scrapbook you can lose 30%” Jesus fuc…. But as long as I hand it in this week he will give me a proper mark.

And the one I got so far is a MERIT or 60/69%

Now that could mean I can get a DISTINCTION if I hand it in or (the bad news) I will a REFERRAL that has a condition I have to complete…

I don’t know if I should be happy or sad.

Current Mood: anxious