Psychotic Welsh and Twisted

I hate this day of the year

2008-01-09T11:13:46Z

Well is this is a turn up for the books, I'm online and i hope you all have had a good life since i was on here last.

and today is one day i'd rather forget... I'm 29 today.

KILL ME!!

Where the f__k have I been?

2007-04-25T11:25:46Z

Just too fill you in… I have been snowed under by all of the work I have to do for collage.

I got a girlfriend… split up because she cheated on me… I forgave her and we got back together… But I only got to see her for about three hours in two weeks… split up on Saturday at 12 o‘clock, because (this is a humdinger) “I don’t feel the same way about you… since I cheated on you” found out it was because she had been with another guy on Friday… and agreed to be his girlfriend, at 11 O’clock on Saturday. But was a coward about telling me. I only found out this because of a friend.

I asked out a girl I like yesterday… she is thinking about it, and going to a Him gig this weekend. So I will get an answer next week. Or when I go to the shop she works at. :P

I got in a fight with my brother Cellan last night. I will not go into it but he is a wanker when he is pissed.

I think I have damaged my little finger on my right hand… he didn’t get a shot in.

I’ve got an assessment on my photographic skills today, from what I’ve be told buy one of my tutors, I seem to know what I’m doing… I just wish it was the other tutor that said that to me, John likes most of my work.

I'll be back on monday with more news on my f__ked up life.

If it’s not one of us it’s another.

2007-02-12T14:08:27Z

Well as you may have heard last time, my mother had a “mild” hart attack and was sent home after 8 days. And so not to be left out, the day my mum got out my granddad (82 or is it 85?) had a full on hart attack, but for some strange reason they let him home only after 2 day, and recommended for the next few weeks to spend as much time resting.

WTF is going on in the NHS I don’t know. I do know its shit and going down within the next year, so if you’re going to get sick do it now. :P

Am I missing something? Yes… I had a chest infection and the crap that was coming out was ugly. I almost vomited a few times, and it got so bad one day I had some trouble breathing.

Other than that… I got a bar jabbed through my nose (as in bullring) and it looks good, if not painful if I catch it on anything. Yes it did make my eyes water when I got it done, but the bastards gave me a ring in the wrong size, so a few days after I had to change it myself, it was that or look like a fucking tit for 8 weeks.

The threads on the new bar hurt on the way in. >.

When shit hits the fan, it really hits home.

2007-01-29T12:20:30Z

So what has happened since I was last on here???

Missed collage on Wednesday because I had an interview.

Got a phone call on Thursday telling me my mum was in hospital.

Found out on Friday she had a “mild” hart attack… so in all over the last few days my life is up shit creek.

God wears black... and also red. :P

2007-01-23T10:33:53Z

I’m not the best at the moment, and I may need to go back to bed.
flu/headache/cold, all combining in the hell that I now call my life... until I get over it.

um... ... dose that mean I’ll be dead?

and yes. my depression is getting out of control, so not all that much has changed in the last week, I’m behind on my assignment (earth air fire water) and I only have two weeks to come up with something... I just may be screwing myself on this one.

As for everything else, I’m still masturbating because I can’t find a “good” or the “right” women for me. I know where one is but I’m just not up for it.

I am now going to my room to think of grave_13 and plumpandsassy getting it on with one another. :D

I don't know... but it's fun

2007-01-16T12:01:14Z

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It’s my birthday and I'm 28 :P

2007-01-09T10:14:18Z

So I’m spending the day poking my fingers in his ears and going *La la lala la lala la la*

And also getting funny looks from people, that Suggest I may be going over the top. :D

I stuck using the collage computers to get online…

2007-01-08T14:19:46Z

Well happy New Year for all, sorry I couldn’t say it sooner. :P

I will have to beg for forgiveness because I don’t really like what is happening tomorrow…

It’s my birthday… I’ll be 28.

I’m to young to get old, so why now?

WHY?????

If the shoe fits

2006-12-19T10:40:29Z

Brightly shone the moon that night,
Though the dark_judgment was cruel.

Good King Wenceslas
from the Christmas Song Generator.

Do my testacies look big in this?

2006-12-12T12:11:17Z

I just had my first assignment score given to me… but I forgot to hand in my scrapbook. : P

And with the words “without your scrapbook you can lose 30%” Jesus fuc…. But as long as I hand it in this week he will give me a proper mark.

And the one I got so far is a MERIT or 60/69%

Now that could mean I can get a DISTINCTION if I hand it in or (the bad news) I will a REFERRAL that has a condition I have to complete…

I don’t know if I should be happy or sad.

In collage can't talk.

2006-12-04T11:48:20Z

Hay all.

A photo of me… try not to run.
http://pics.livejournal.com/dark_judgment/pic/00004z46

And a Photo of Jacel… trying to look cute.. …
http://pics.livejournal.com/dark_judgment/pic/00005c04

Shit!

2006-11-27T14:51:55Z

It looks like I have to get down Cardiff tomorrow ASAP.

The forecast looks promising and then the next few days look like shit.

Jacel I’ll meet you in central station just let me know when to show up there (because I’ll have to get from the bay and I don’t know my way) but if not I’ll see you when I can.

Hopefully I will get this project finished by next week.

Collage can be fun… It can be if you like people… I don’t.

2006-11-22T11:46:39Z

What can be said? I ‘m finding it hard to keep in contact with a few people and Livejournal, and I never seem to find the time for things I want to do.

My new project is down Cardiff bay, and so I need to get down there in the next few days in order to get the shots I need. But as with everything I still haven’t got a clue as to what I intend to use the photos for, and I need to get it all together by the 4th.

All I need is one nice day with good light… and be able to get down Cardiff to get them :P

I found this result interesting.

2006-11-22T11:32:40Z

You are the Hanged Man

Self-sacrifice, Sacrifice, Devotion, Bound.

With the Hanged man there is often a sense of fatalism, waiting for something to happen. Or a fear of
loss from a situation, rather than gain.

The Hanged Man is perhaps the most fascinating card in the deck. It reflects the story of Odin who offered himself as a sacrifice in order to gain knowledge. Hanging from the world tree, wounded by a spear, given no bread or mead, he hung for nine days. On the last day, he saw on the ground runes that had fallen from the tree, understood their meaning, and, coming down, scooped them up for his own. All knowledge is to be found in these runes.

The Hanged Man, in similar fashion, is a card about suspension, not life or death. It signifies selflessness, sacrifice and prophecy. You make yourself vulnerable and in doing so, gain illumination. You see the world differently, with almost mystical insights.

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Hahahahaha

2006-10-17T09:58:28Z

I’m at collage so I’ll show you some of the stuff I’ve been up too.

A little fun on my part.
http://pics.livejournal.com/dark_judgment/pic/00002p6r/

And Jad standing on a rock. :P
http://pics.livejournal.com/dark_judgment/pic/00003fcg/

Why don’t I just get on with it?

2006-10-05T13:37:39Z

Because it’s raining.

I have until Tuesday to complete my first assignment… .

1: I need to go up to the graveyard for the “memory” part of the assignment, It seems (to me) like anyone can grasp it as being a memory, otherwise why have a headstone?

2: Then I need to go up the rocking stone for the “solitude” part… I am not looking forward to the walk up a bloody big steep as hell hill, but there is another way to get up there… It’s the long way around, with the possibility of becoming a temporary hood ornament. :P

3: The self-portrait part… must not contain any part of yourself, so I’m still pummelling my brain to come up with something that will work, I have had a few idea’s but none are practical to make and will take longer than the time I have left. I can go for something simple like a photo of my junk or just something very personal…

Anyway that’s off my head for the moment but I really need to get to work on the writhing... that’s going to take me the rest of today…

And life still sucks.

Just to let you know.

2006-09-28T19:27:58Z

I’ll update this thing on Thursday Friday and Saturdays, Sundays if I’m lucky :P

I haven’t got time today, so I’ll… well… LOOK!!! AT THE SIZE OF THAT BIRD.

Logs off.

Holy shit! I hear you cry.

2006-09-19T09:15:48Z

Yes I'm alive and I'm in collage. :) (And I may have a slap on my head for sending this. :P) I'm doing HND Photography and Digital Imaging... I fear I may be in over my insane little head.

Well just I"m having to dig a grave for my PC... for It's dead. and that's why I have not been on to piss you all off.

got to go...

Why is murder not legal?

2006-07-24T21:07:36Z

Well despite my slight mental breakdown, I’m still here and it’s only taken a few days for me to stop from going INSANE!!...

No. I’m still pissed at them but not as much, I still like the idea of cutting there break lines, just so they know what it’s like to have no control over something... the crash will help them to remember that, and the few days they will need in hospital.

Hahahahahah :P

$^#^($#$#@%#......

2006-07-20T12:25:31Z

I’ve just been up to see Dr Doom... And I feel like Killing her and the fat fuck that I had the mental assessment with... (or should that be Dr Fat fuck?) Where to start... Ok: I like people to know what to expect, and to have any info concerning the job at hand, not a complex thing to accomplish if you know your job.

But it looks like I’m having a tag team head-fuck, Doom hadn't informed fat fuck I’m having a problem with depression, and fat fuck didn’t ask why I was sent to see him, so I’ve now been diagnosed with only anxiety, I’ll admit it is one of my problems but I’m not too concerned with it. What I’m concerned with is the very thing I’ve been planning over since I got back, (It’s very Triggering so I‘ll leave it out) god dame it feels like a very good idea, five minutes that’s all I need.

I really don’t need any of this...

It’s been way too hot for me today... but

2006-07-19T20:09:59Z

If your into something along the lines of Rock/Metal/Gothic music, I’d recommend having a listen to Bullet For My Valentine. Form what I’ve got my hands on so far they are pretty good, I’d recommend. Tears Don’t Fall & All these things I hate.

You may already know them... but what just one more push? :D

There may be a point to this post... but I’m fucked if I know.

2006-07-17T19:15:45Z

I’ve noticed over the last ten weeks of being on the meds, I tend to be more unpredictable and just a bit more moody, I was Extremely agitated yesterday (that's an understatement) anything that was not to my liking I went off on one. That’s why I didn’t update this thing, a Pissed off me and LJ don’t really mix all that well, so I saved you all from my ramblings.

It could have something to do with how hot it is... I don’t know what the temp is, but it’s Killing me, I can’t stand hot weather and it’s only going to get hotter over the next few day’s... So I’ll be having my cremation a sooner than I planed on. :P

A word of warning.

2006-07-15T20:00:26Z

If you are feeling down and you got Depression.

Never.

Ever.

Ever.

Ever.

watch.

Edward Scissorhands.

The world will feels like it’s collapsing in.

I’m feeling good... I think?

2006-07-14T20:59:11Z

I've Got nothing really bad or good to report, so I’m stumped as to what to moan about...

I could have a go at the total lack of sex in my life, but I... Er!!! ???? I don’t think I give a shit about it... Well maybe just a little, but I don’t seem to think about it... I guess I really don’t have anything to say. :P

Here is something that pissed me off.

2006-07-11T22:48:55Z

Flight at night.

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/36161292/

What do you think?